Saturday, April 19, 2014

Celebrating Music, Celebrating Humanity, Celebrating Life

Growing up Baptist, I missed so much of the incredibly beautiful and meaningful music associated with this season of the year because Baptists avoided anything that was too liturgical. It wasn't until I sang this piece with the Stillwater Chamber Singers several years ago did I realize how truly magnificent it is.

I no longer celebrate the religious aspect of this season, preferring to celebrate it in a fashion that reflects its pagan origins of fertility and rebirth, but that doesn't mean that I don't appreciate its significance to others and to western history and culture. Happy Easter to all my friends, however you celebrate it, or not.

Pergolesi's magnificent Stabat Mater for Soprano & Alto

Tuesday, April 8, 2014

Writer's Discouragement

I admit it. For the past several days I have been caught up in a funk of discouragement. I learned not too long ago that another novel with my book's subject has been published through a big house publisher. And although it appears from the previews and the reviews that have already been posted on that it doesn't even come close to matching the quality and depth of research, writing, or story-telling that mine does, because it is through a legacy publisher and not an independent, in the less-than-two months since its publication, it has already surpassed mine in sales and number of Amazon reviews. That's the advantage of a legacy publisher: Marketing. An author who is picked up by a big house publisher is guaranteed a mass market that an independent doesn't have access to.

Yet, if I were to try and get mine published through a big house, I would have to find an agent and then I would be subject to all the cuts, maximum word count requirements, and changes that the publisher would demand and then my story would be little more than a cheap paperback romance novel--just like the one that's getting all the marketing and crappy Amazon reviews. I won't compromise my standards to meet  some publisher's bottom line demands.

Damn, it's discouraging to be an independent author in a niche market stuck out in the middle of nowhere with few connections. Just damn.

Monday, April 7, 2014

When Dust Settles

"Wait until the dust settles,"
Patience cried, impatiently.
"When sorrow and regret have
claimed their spots in corners
with cobwebs,
and anger rests
passively upon the table,
then the light of forgiveness will pour in
and expose them, 
so that they can be swept away."

Mag 214

© K. Lynette Erwin, 2014